Black Or White? Grey Pleaseeeee?

Hello

I'm lazy to update.

Bye.

Today's The Day

where 11 is suppose to be the magical number.

Pleaseeee

Har-loh.

I'm going to update properly now. So, its Puasa period, and guess what? I could hold back the urges to eat most of the time. Good enough, better than the days in good old BBSS, where skipping is a routine and habit. So, my family has done 5 different types of "kuih-kuih". Impressive, since its mostly a 2-man-team, or should I say 1-half-man-team. Considering I slacked alot, hmm. All of them are edible though. :) and Rashid has volunteered to test try the "kuihs." I need to meet him soon, prove to him that its niceee.

Hari Raya this Sunday and I can't wait. But Saturday is a day I can't wait for too. Its B and me 11th. :D haha. But I doubt I cant even step out of the house. Boohoo. :( There's always green packets to look forward to on sunday. Let's hope this year's haul is better than last year. My bank account needs money badly! Not forgetting getting together with my cousins, thats a good thing, its been so long.

I'm bored at home. Just played FIFA Online 2. There's DOTA, CS, MOHPA, RA3. But I'm sick of all. :( I want L4D, Football Manager 2009, Batman: Arkham Asylum! Hols killing me. I want go climb!!!

This is long enough. Goodnight humans.

Long Long Way

Its 5.14am. I just reached hme an hour ago, I'm hungry, I'm sad. I miss my girl. I miss my old me.





GOOD LUCK FOR LATER B! :D

Realization

Take time to realize?

NO MORE TIME.

Crossroads

Its so hard. Why am I such a pain? I don't understand things. Its so pain to see you like this. Its all my fault. I only got you. I have others, but no, it will be just you only. Not others.

There is no pain equal to that which two lovers can inflict on one another. This should be made clear to all who contemplate such a union. The avoidance of this pain is the beginning of wisdom, for it is strong enough to contaminate the rest of our lives.
	Cyril Connolly

Back There

Sometimes, I think that, I go too fast. Its time to reverse and find the old me.

A State Of ....

I wonder to myself. Why do I always mess up? GRRR! I'm so pissed at myself. :(

And Black Became Grey

Something must be done. Too many chances, all blown away. Common Haqiz.

SSC done. Good camp, lousy weekend. Burning inside, suffering inside.

I want go out. Why can't I? Its the HOLIDAYS. I want go out! :(

Loser

Im such a loser.

That Way

Seems so, alone? Am I missing something?













Patience the key. Give and take.

Yesterday

Gym at Sam's condo gym with R and Sam. Super slack. "Played" with the dumbbells for 1 and a half hours. Good job Haqiz. R slacckkkk! hahaha.

I need a proper update on this blog. But life so mundane without school. And stories of me and R is a no-no. Soooooooooooooooooo. HOW HOW??

Sorry.

I'm sorry my friends, for not going this afternoon. I'm sorry 4E5ians for not being able to attend this upcoming class BBQ.




I just want you back. YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU! I fucking hate myself.

Again

Stop being paranoid Haqiz. 17 and yet behaving immaturely. This is so infuriating. I'm so pissed at myself.

Got to prove. Need to prove. Wants to prove.

I miss you. I miss being happy.

Here Without You

Tears flow. Eyes redden. Hands too weak. Heart in pain. No energy to do anything.




















Don't try to selet in my relationship. Im never perfect. But I'm always trying to be. And always, another weakness comes out. Hurts, pains. Where to go? I see you. Why are you running? Don't! Please don't?

WEE

PEACE. Lets find peace. Go Haqiz.

Regretting

I hate me. HATE!













What to do now? You messed up Haqiz. Get it back on track.

1+1=2

Two's a company. Three's a crowd.

Im pissed.

Where It Belongs

Today been such a pretty good day. Though it started badly with me, waking up late and taking a mammoth effort to just go and bathe. Went online and headed to BBSS after that. Suppose to have a meeting but 4 came. -.- I can't see effort yet, this is so infuriating. Wanted to go to mama shop at the back of school but in the end, played basketball first.

Had a good time shooting in the ball, alot went in, and I must say that is an achievement considering the last time I held a basketball was like O levels? Played 4v3. Went to mama shop and off we went to Macs; Haziq, Iman and me. Watched Remi Gaillard on Youtube. Laughed like mad at Macs.

The best part of the day? Meeting YOU. Its like so great to have you with me, talking with you and not thinking of other matters. Love love love YOU! :D BG is mine forever.

The worst part of today? Knowing that my first paper is only 4 days away. :( SPOILER!!

10 months. 304 days. I love you, my BG. :D

To get what you want, you need to earn it. Work hard, and achieve it.

I did try. I did. I put in so much more than any others. What would be the end results? Wait and see Haqiz.

Two's a company, three's a crowd.

Nothing is so much better than you. Nothing should go wrong with you. Nothing can match up to you. Nothing is worth more than you. Nothing can top you. Nothing in this world can be so precious to me other than you. Nothing seems impossible with you. Nothing seems like you.

But we can never be nothing.

Hate him not.

And Then There Was A Word Called Future

You know a day good day came when you smile so much. Seeing your beautiful girl, nothing is more great. As quoted on Amelia's blog pic and Dictionary.com, Love: A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person."

What's wrong?

What's wrong with me? Am I even worthy of a place in this world. It just seems that I can never be good. Everywhere, I'm just stressed by the thought of it. School isn't clicking, friends ain't understanding, family just nagging, NCC is calling. I want a life which is balanced. Maybe I'm juggling too much, but I just want to try. This could be my downfall, maybe it wouldn't. I won't take a break, I won't go down without fighting. I can't give up.

I'm lost.




I need you; Rachel Soong Wen Ching. You been my fire, my motivation, my will, my inspiration, my saviour, my life for the past 9 months. I need you more than ever. Please.

My past is too much for you to take, I know. But as some people would put it, "People change over time." I did. And I'm better than ever. We both lost a lot together but it was worth I must say. I just need you now. I need my beautiful queen.

IM FED UP WITH MYSELF.

Disappointment

FUCK MY STUPID PAST! I hate me. I totally hate me. HAQIZ An-Nuar; YOU ARE THE MOST STUPID FUCKED UP BASTARD IN THIS WORLD! GO AND DIE YOU PIECE OF CRAP! YOU ARE PATHETIC PATHETIC PATHETIC! GET THIS IN YOUR BRAIN, YOU ARE NOTHING, YOU SUCK AND YOU CAN NEVER EXCEED EXPECTATIONS! DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE.

DUH DUH DUH

I want go climb. I want to. Not now though.

What the fuck is wrong with you Haqiz. You make misery, you make pain, you caused problems and you never realize it. Grow up Haqiz, you are 17, mature enough. You are just plain stupid. CB, no wonder everyone can get disappointed with you. You are just not good enough, don't even know how to be perfect.

GAD Haqiz.

You need to learn, you need to adapt. There's no other way, you got to change.

Reminder to myself.

And someday, you realize that what you think is enough, never really filled the cup.

Happy monthsary! :D

Immaturity. Stereotype. Exists in school, in CCA, in NCC.

No use just saying amongst yourselves, let it out. Im fed-up. Its SO hard to maintain the peace. I cant stay on the fence forever. I got to make a choice. A decision.

BBSS NCC SEA, i know you people read my blog, and im fed up with problems brewing up in the unit. Its time to grow up, think maturely. We are ONE. ONE UNIT. There should not be any cracks in it. Unsatisfied with a small matter, don't make a big fuss. Time to learn to take it in and move on. Grow up. NCC cadets serve with pride and dedication, let the seven corps value guide you.

It feels sucky to drag my feet to school., already anticipating the insult you will get. Just take it in haqiz. Just take it in.

H-E-L-L-O!

Mid-semester test is craaaaaaaaaap. Only got back Cad so far, and yea 92/100. Seems good huh? But im more worried about the other two. Going to exam without much confidence, knowing that a fail is a high possibility. Mechanics tmrw morning and we are going to have a new lecturer. Sucks. Mr Gan was great. But i have to face reality, he's retired and we are going to have an old Indian lecturer. Nothing will go wrong i hope.

Rock-climbing the rage now. Climb and climb. Trying hard to improve my technique and get my strength up. And yea, my grip strength. Having seniors who mentors, guide and teach with patience; thats a good start. Up to me now.

NCC is a bore now. No major activities in HQ till September? BORING! School training from now on. Opening Ceremony coming, cant wait. Contingent Commander for GOH. GEEEEEEEEEE, holding sword! YEA! HAHAHA!!

Having a wonderful person in your life is just amazing. LALALALA!! :D

boreeeeeeeeed.

C/OFFR Haqiz has evolved to C/2LT Haqiz!!

Hello again unknown readers.

Im having an identity crisis. Moving on to poly has made me somehow lost touch with my race. Yes i do have a malay classmate. But we converse in english, not malay. Sometimes i wonder if it has happen since i was in primary school. Having a class full of chinese peeps and it doesnt help that sometimes that they insult my race or any others. Yes, i admit have insulted other races sometimes in the past or maybe even now? But i do it at the spur of the moment and the sense of guilt still hangs over me.

Whatever it is right now, I don't want to lose touch with my people. Allah, help me.

Spec Course over! WOOOO!! Normal sleeping time?

APC of Frigate 1. A nice experience. I just cant forget the funny moments during the course. It just cheers me up. Abit though. My cadets appraisal for me? Strict, fierce and funny??

Weird.

35th AKE!

Somewhat a good 3 days spent. Jai Ho all the way Sea Cadet Officers!

Howdy mate?


9 June. My day. How did it went? GREAT. All due to my RRRRRRRRRRR. :D hahaha.




Oh, yah. On Sunday, went for a chalet. 2 days only. BUT i had a great, awesomest, wonderful, superb, damn damn damn fun time there. Yea, got my R. :D But the rest, Mavis, Yanlan, Hanyi and Yu Yang were part of it too. Too bad Karthi couldn't come, if not it would be better. Went Wild, Wild, Wet for the first time(sad, i know) haha the place isn't that great for an adolescent like me, just find it better for kids. GEEEE, "Shiok River" wasn't that shiok! I got bullied, ALOT. :( haha but yea, it was great fun. Ular-lah is fun, i think for the 3 or 4 times we took it, i posed for the camera readily, then laughed at the picture later. It was a great time relaxing after a crazy first term in school.




Had BBQ afterwards, didnt eat cause of some reasons. Went Macdonalds with R, chatting with her is just (inserts word). Then, went back bathed and got ready for midnight movie. While slacking in the room, R and Mavis asked the rest to go out cause they need to settle some stuffs first. So i just went down with the rest and waited at a table. Watched Han Yi and Yu Yang play poker cards. Was surprised afterwards. PRIVATE. :D Fast-forward to after the movie. Wanted to go to Red House, but didnt in the end. haha. We then make up for it by watching scary videos on youtube. And then, one by one slept. Leaving me alone at 5am. Slept at 6, woke up at 8. Bathed then we all went to Macdonalds(AGAIN) for breakfast. Wanted to watch movie at Bugis but the horror show we wanted just finished showing. So slacked at the new shopping mall at Bugis. Went home around 3.


Stepped into the house and straightaway studied for my PPCDL theory test. "Mugged" for two hours then went school for the test. AND I PASSED!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Practical on 18 July, cant wait. haha. Like finally after 2 tries.




Waited for 12am. Countdown to MY day. hehe. AND THANKS TO THE PEOPLE WHO WISHED ME!!! :D


R, Syahidah, Nurul Mardiah, Afidah, Fatin, Ramizah, Dad, Faris, Sheryl(who wished me twice; sms and blog! loves!), Nabil, Chermaine and Danish. [by SMS]


Alvis, Jiaxun, Nabilah, Rashid, Farisa, Pei Ru, Peilin, Matthew, Farrah, Debbie, Brandon, Jia Cong, Hwee Ping, Liana, Ashu, Adel, Ningzhen, Joel, Zhu Yi, Ammarah, Simraan, Firdaus, Faliq, Victor, Yu Xuan, Jonathan, Bro, Azyan, Kak Shasha, Viknesh, Fred, Shafiq, Abg Enal, Mark Lin, Gary, Rebecca, Amir, Jia Jun, Khairul, Bertrand, Simah, Mavis, Aind, Wei Jia Jun, Mark Romario, Derek, Daphne, Chen Yu, Daniel, Uma, and Aznita(who can post on my wall for some reason) [via Facebook]


Kurtz, Pei Ru, Rashid, Clarence, Nabilah, Farrah, Idayu, Nadhirah, Celine, Hui Yin, Ili, Nazirul, Jing Yi, Elliot, Nazri and Yan. [MSN]


Sheryl Seah, Aisyah, Mavis and Nadia. [through their blog. maybe others have?]


THANKS TO THESE PEOPLE!! :DD You made my day! Though R still made it the best. :D


Had my birthday dinner at Mad Jack! A great place to dine! Ordered black pepper grilled chicken and steak with brown sauce. Was super hungry. I must say, the food is damn niceeeeeeeeeee. :D and they staff gave us a free slice of cake. So nice of them. The people there are super friendly! Took photos all. All in the new camera but waiting for my bro to upload. hahaha lazy.





OKAY OFF TO REST! TMRW NEED REPLY 51 Facebook wall posts!! SO LAZY! :(

LOVES!! :D

Oh how i wish i wasn't naive. Oh, how i wish i wasn't stupid. Oh, how i wish i wasn't dumb. Right now, things change dramatically. What was i thinking?

9 June tmrw. 17 tmrw. A new age tmrw. YET i still need to learn even more.





Reflect haqiz. REFLECT......

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!


Im just happy today. HAPPY! HAPPY!! :D

Had a great day yesterday. Woooooooo. But i kept asking something, tsk, im so stupid.


Had NCCDP selection. haha. Clare and me got in! Without any selection! 'Cause got no other people? hahaha. Fun fun. Relaxed after some minutes of tension after that while waiting for SM. I got contingent commander and clare got Contingetnt 2IC, since clare the Parade 2IC for BBSS school opening. Need to brush up my sword drills! So sucky la just now. Aint good enough. Will work hard!! happy happy!

Its a chance. Now or never.



Freaking out. Korean stars are the dope now. Its like so addictive. And like so many pretty girls (i still want my RRR :D) and guys who can dance damn well. Makes me want to dance. Sadly, i have the body of a robot and dancing is like a total NO-NO! Still, Koreans are cooooool. hahahaha

This week made smile alot. Thanks to someone eh? Those moments felt soooooooo, special. :D love you supergirl. :-*

lalalalala, moving on, rock-climbing is such a great sport. Just fell in love with it after my first climb at school's wall. CANT WAIT TO CLIMB AGAIN!! TMRW AFTER WORKSHOP!!! WOOOOOOO!! hahaaha

I know two frisbee girls already. One is malay-look-a-like ZOE TANG, then the other is the act-fierce-but-so-cant-make-it MOJO JOJOAN! always bumbed to them. Then the evil mojo jojoan will give me the "fierce" face and i will just laugh at it. hahaah BONNY BOXY!!! so lameeeeeeeeee. :P

Oh yahhh, DFRSM will cease to exist next year! hahaha anira cant get in already!! :P so the reason was? people got fooled by the name. -.- dont they check the website? i mean, its already in School of MM; an engineering school. Obviously it will be an engineering course? TSK TSK. I feel excited about my future now. I mean im like part of only two batches who takes DRFSM. Its like so specialised and unique. CANT WAIT MANN. :D

Going to sleep now. I need rest for my climb tmrw! woooooo!

Mother oh mother.

Today's a great day. :) LALALALALALALALALA~

Peace out. Peace over. WAHAHAHA!

OKAY. Im high. Sleeping now. Tmrw got OC project and workshop. AND I WANNA CLIMB!!! Blahhh, can't wait. hahaha

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

YOYOYOYOYOYO!!!

Not posting so long seems weird. ANYWAY, I had a cool week. Lollipop at zouk was unexpectedly fun. Dancing was quite fun though it was damn squeezy. And the music wasn't that good, most were SP's own dee-jays so can't really expect much? Had good time with all my friends and classmates. Shame, went home early. Good point? A free ride home and rest for school the next day.

Got a new friend. Joan Chien. And Singapore sucha a small world. She knows some of my sec school friends through OBM. And there i thought she will be a totally new stranger to me. Oh well, what to do?

Coughing the whole week isn't fun. And coughing for almost 3 weeks doesn't seems fine, right? Gahhh, i hope i'm not that seriously sick........................

There's seemed to be a new club in SP. Mat Club. Founded by a malaysian, it aims to "unite" all Mats. Catching no balls?? Come over to my class and you will know.

Poker on Facebook is alot of funnnn. Thanks to Kak Farah, i play poker everyday. Its fake money though. I only got $40k plus but considering i just started and still a noob, impressive rate i must say. Aiming to get $1million. On a winning streak now! :)

BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Never got into soccer team. Playing with players with high ego isnt going to work. Damn, blew it. So in the end, I joined Sports Club, Rock Climbing and Dee-jay. I think i will spend more time on Sports Club and Rock Climbing. Yeaaaaa. CLIMB CLIMB CLIMB!! :D

In other words, You gotta step out of your shell to move on.

YOOOOO.

Barely recovered. Yea, down with flu. Superrrr sucky. Cause school just started and I can't afford to skip the first few weeks. Must make a good impression with the lecturers you seeeee. And make close friendships too. You never know when they could be of a greater help to us. Yah, so make my way to school everyday faithfully, been late only twice i think? But this week almost late on a number of times, sick and wake up late.

Lessons has been interesting. I got an ang-moh lecturer who i can impersonate very well. And although his accent isn't that thick or strong or whatever it is, i still FIND it hard to understand him. But his kind, if i skip i don't think he will mind? Then there is my class tutor, PT GAN! Funny guy, his way of greeting us? A long "HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO" with a funny tone. And everytime, my class, DRFSM/1B/21, will laugh wildly at his antics.

Poly life seems fuunnnn. I want to experience moreeeeee. But one thing i don't like about poly? The F''king expensive transport fees. I spent like over $40 on that in two weeks? :( im poooooor.















Would you like to donate to "Let's get Haqiz richer and let him shop more" fund?

Sick. Will update at night.

How cool is that?

There i go, trying hard as i could. It still wouldn't move, though someday i hope it would.

Just got back from MKE, paternal cousins planning for outing and a haircut. MKE was fun. The LAN gaming place with 4-5 computers linking up to play games. Uber cool. Admin was rushed as per normal. Cadets are being abit blur and have to rush through everything.

Congratulations to the 6 cadets who made it through to AKE too.





I just dont get it. Why must you fall for her? Wtf is wrong with your brains? Because of your actions, now all of us are suffering. I shall use Farrah's trademark. You MOFO! You still ain't backing down? Nevermind, I will prove my worth and show how really good i am that you will doubt yourself. FCUK YOU! ass

Im off to MKE untill sunday night. So this blog wont be updated till, let's say monday?

Last words,

You been the best i had.

Maybe i took it for granted.

fcuk you.

Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

booooooooooooooooooooooo

Hello people.

Just wanna say that I have









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GAINED WEIGHT! i know some of you may say its nothing but, my weight last year was 50! Super skinny. This year it has gone up to 55! hahahaha but I think I look the same. I guess its muscle mass laaa. :)

What Horrible Thing

I just came back from Air Camp FEAST. And the whole time, I gotta to tahan some sort of infection on my leg. Infection to simply put it. All mouquitos bites, cuts and some blisters got infected. Sucks big time. I couldn't walk properly during the whole camp. Got back home and went to the clinic and got bandaged all over. A possibility it could be Soil's Disease or something like that. Abit dangerous don't ya think so?

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On a positive note, I learn new things. Like how to dispatch people from the Flying Fox Tower. Kinda cool. And I tried High Elements for the first time. Scary, considering my fear of height. Archery was great, I could shot three bullseyes in a row. Cool huh? Played alot of new games. E.g. C&C Generals, CS source, Left 4 Dead and one other, forget the title of the game. Great, im getting better in C&C. Not too good with CS and bad with L4D. Played pool too, my third time playing, good effort la.

On a whole, a good start to the week excluding the leg infection thing.

P.S. Rashid sending me CS. So long leh. :/

WOOOOOOTS!

LALALALALALALALALALALALA~


weirdo me. -.-

On "bright" side, NCC was horrible. I meant AAC was horrible. Badly planned. Need to change some things. Super hot also, felt like fainting or die-ing. hahaha.

You people can hear that? Can hear?






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The bed is calling me! Got to go. hehehe

Next Stop

Gotta make a move.

It Sucks

Know your limits. Fuck, im just so pathethic.

Camp Feast

HELLO! :)

Just got back from Camp Feast for Sea District Phase 1. First camp as instructor and it was a good experience. Was APC for Platoon 2 with Farhana as their PC. Farhana is great and super fun to look at when she is angry. :P Sec ones this year seemed so immature. Most of them don't even know how to differentiate finger on your lips and hands cover your lips. Its like DUMB luh. Not saying that theyare purely dumb but just that their potential are not unleashed yet.

Trolley party was an easy job, just that the sun will be our worst enemy. I'm getting darker, regaining the colour tones of my secondary school days. Great, being tanned is niceeeeeee. Food as usual sucked. Really sucked.

Right now, I'm having a hard time. There's too many stuffs in my mind. And everything just cross each other out. Sucks to be me now.

Off, I want to try and do A-maths. I want to get back and improve on it. Cause, SCHOOL IS STARTING!!

GO HAQIZ GO! GO HAQIZ GO!

You And I

I'm a bad decision maker. I hate my guts, its just takes me to the wrong place. I've been different these days. Eversince Os ended, I've changed, I dont find myself the lively and optimistic guy I was in secondary school. Maybe circumstances have changed, but seriously, this getting way out of hand. I need to find the old me coupled with a mature thinking. That will be sooooooo good.

For now? Let me just sink to desperation.

Back

Hello people.

Just came back from two back-to-back camps. First was Bukit Batok Ncc annual camp. Had a good time there. Juniors are improving which i wanted the most. Common, you can be better! :)

Next had a Advanced Drill Course from 16/03 to 19/03 at HQ. Superb camp. Met seniors from other intakes and districts. I think its such a good camp. Since now i'm a Supernumerary, i shall do my part as a drilll instructor to teach my cadets better and serve NCC in another way now. NCC day, i want to take Contingent Commander or Sea Ensign. But most probably Contingent Commander. So to my Part As, look out for me during NCC Day Parade.

Im getting worse. :/ Feel alone everywhere i go. No queries.


Sentosa!

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Damage done.









Am I turning 17? I wonder after yest. How immature of myself. How immature I could be. Maybe I cant even grow up. Damn. :/

POOT

HELLO

I just cant figure out something. Im confused.

Last few days was great. Went out everyday, and not get bored at home. Last friday AKE prep was good. BBSS did great. Monday helped out Gan Eng Seng B boys soccer team. They got no coach so i just helped out la. Not saying im good or what but i got some knowledge, why not share with them. Tues, where did I go? Wed helped Gan Eng Seng again, match was postponed to next Monday. Team was good though quite slow in recovering. Yest go Trainfire at Hq, super chaotic, I took two schools. And they were super enthusiast about SAR 21. -.- Well, at least they could do everything well. Packed and changed they went work after that. Oh yaaaaaa, Im working Mond to Thurs at StorHub. Somewhere la. Job is okay for now. But I wont want to work here when school starts. hint - its quite far from my house.

Im bored. Will bath soon then go Medical Checkup. SP need sehhh. I know NP dont need. I wonder about the rest?

Before I go off, I just want to say I finally a person whom i talked and chat and fooled and SMS-ed with and never her before. She is none than NADIA. I was sweet-talked to put this. So yah. haha. :P I dont have her pic. But just click on her link above and you can see her macho face. haha :)

haha

HELLO!

I got a job. hahahahaha if you get a call asking if you want to sell your house, its NOT me. :)

oh the boredom.

h-e-l-l-o-!

Today is a cool day for me at home. Since i slept yest at 1am. Obviously i will wake up late. True enough, i woke up around 10. But guess what? I on-ed my PS2(yes still stuck with this :/) and played till 12 plus. Bored, then proceeded to use the computer. Then i watched stupid videos on Youtube. Its not porn rashid. Yah. Then blog-hopped to some people's blogs. Yea, like theres a war going on now. Its fun to watch but at the same time its hurting the unit. So, i have to do something right? By the time i was bored with the comp, its was 3pm. And i wanted to bath, but lazy. So sat on the sofa and watched TV. NO SHOWS! It sucks not to have Starhub Cable TV. :( And yea, finally bathed at 4pm. Played Red Alert 2 again. (I have finished the two campaigns 6 times already. So sick of it now.) Played soccer with my young bro. Obviously i win, he's faaattt. Just like Farrah. OOOPS. :P

IM BORED AT HOME! Maybe Nadia was right. I got no life. -.- haha

Anyway, called Chen Yu's workplace, asked got any vacancy, and the guy asked me to msg him my name and age and said he will call back again. Wait so long, till now no reply. Bus-third. Anyway, will be working on 13 and 14 Feb. Selling flowers. Valentine's Day mah. But sad, cannot celebrate with ______. :/

Bye.

yah, late post.

!olleh

Got my postings, now another wait to go to school. :( months of waiting for results was terrible. i did nothing at all. Except for 56th, most of the time i'm like at home, doing nothing. I couldn't find work, and now finding work will not be worth. But still i shall try. But again, most places I go only accepts 18 and above. -.-

On a good note, i got into my first choice, which is Resort Facilities Services and Management. I wonder if the course can allow me to go to Uni easily. 'Cause i really want a degree. And maybe Masters? Yea, it will look good on my resume. And i get a higher pay. :) But must work hard in polytecnic first then can advance right? haha.

I guess February will be filled with NCC. Since i'm free and sea district is always shorthanded, i volunteer myself. :) I'm such a good Cadet Officer. Oh yah, this year's sec ones applying for Ncc Sea seems to have some potential. Well, i hope they don't disappoint. Part B and C, do me proud and impress the Part A over the next few trainings.

Last Saturday was a great day. Its VERY rare for my whole maternal side to meet up and have dinner together. Well, I'm so glad 97% came for Fahrul's Birthday dinner at Sakura's. And cousins camwhored alot. Yea, i'm guilty of taking too many pictures. Sad thing is, I don't have the pictures. Too lazy to get from syahidah or matin. :) went home at 3. Now that is a real gathering.

APRIL, please come faster! I want go school! I miss school! More personally, I MISS YOU! :(

There goes.

Hello. :)

andddddddddddd im fed up. fed up. my tummy been aching since just now. crap, feeling sucks. i wonder what i ate till it became like that.

and i will reply tags only for today. :) and it dates back to 3 Jan 2008. The rest malas laaaaaaa. :P



Farrah: Not what you think la! :P

fatin: wahhhhhhh must call eh?!!! :P haha will will call. hmmmmmmm told already right? haha

mary: YO ADIK! ermmmm, ceiling? haha :P

tuty: tak la, awak yang klakar rashid. haha OOOPS!

Pei San: obviously rmbr right? and oh, i chatted with you on msn already! -.-

Farrah: HI!

mary: thanks adik! haha tapi dah dpt, and satisfied! :)

Khairul: YUP! heard about it. will send my name to maj oliver asap!

fatin: HI GILER-ER! :P

cynthia: who are you? haha

Farrah: eh kau okay tak? haha

clarence: haha welcomed! True true.

idayu: after i update ok? haha thanks!

fatin: surprised to see kan kan? haha im so goooooooooood. and you are welcomed! :D

Acahbelo/Aisyah: HELL-O! haha hello laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Farrah: HI TETEK! dah lah gmbr tu hari cleavage! hahaha :P

boyfriend: kan update niiiiiiiiiii. haha :) will be update more regularly la. dont worry. EH MISS YOU LA! haha

Nebyla: i did. and in fact i LOL, ROFL, LMAO. evrything laaaaa. because of?!! MINAH SHOT!!!! HAHAHA :P:P:P:P

AMALINA: woah, dont tell people la. SHHHHHHHHHH! its a secret! haha :)


Ok done. And OMG. I miss Concord people alot. And some have changed. But still good what when i met up with them yesterday. Went East Coast and evrything, so DAMN FUN! haha Shall update on it next time! i promise! :)

Going to WC now.


BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

infinity disease

Hey all. I realized i need to start updating more regularly. BUT, there is usually nothing to talk about. BUT again, this time i have. :)

Continue about my O level results. So, yah, i did got 14 points for my L1R4. Which to me is good enough. Considering I only started studying like around, let me guess, two weeks before each paper? haha. Some of you may not believe but thats your problem. I lazed around during my last year in a school that saw me through my adolescent years. Its the truth anyway. Okay, this is my results.

English - B3
Combined Humanities - B3
Mathematics - B3
Additional Mathematics - C5
Physics - B3 (surprise surprise)
Chemistry - E8 (spoiler!)
Malay - B4

So thats about it. Since my CCA is an A1, so L1R4 should be (3+3+3+3+4)-2=14. Compare that to my prelims, which was 24. :) hahaha you can bet i was surprised to the max. I dont look L1R5 if you notice. 'Cause i think JCs isnt for me so why bother anyway? And i got my choice of course already. Its Resort Facilities Service and Management. Sounds chim? Its more of an engineering course so i will be engineer, which sounds cool? haha On a serious note, its quite a good field so i decided on it. Bioengineering is second, if i get this i will still be an engineer but i work with doctors and scientists! Lagi cool.....

Okay, its 11.50pm. And all i want to say is, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FATIN, CLARENCE, HAFIZ! 17 year old already. Must feel lucky cause you are older than me by 5months. To Clarence; dude thanks for the help in NCC or studies, appreciate it lots! Will be working with you for 2 or 3 more years? haha see you soon! To Hafiz; you are an asshole! haha kidding, funny guy, i wonder if you will be with C? Anyway, glad to know you and you have been a great company, still rmbr when we went out to buy our prom stuffs, like stupid people la! And good luck in your whatever Nitec course you are in! Last but not least, to Fatin; what should i describe you? hmmmmmmmmm, a bitch? asshole? NO! But the best bestfriend you can have! :) Great to know you real well. Still rmbr the incident last year? When i err, did something? haha i was stupid la! But lucky you forgave me and we are normal again. Its just great to have you around you knw? haha Good luck in your O levels this year! Do me proud! :D

GOSH! Im still down though. Issues. Hanging on, barely. I just regret what i did. But still i have to face the consequences. Believe in me again will you? Please Please.

Okay, i got to gooooooooooooooooooooo. BYEZXZXZX! twit twitty!

Rollercoaster ride.

WOAH! I cant believe i got 14 points for L1R4. And i cant believe that led to another thing that till now affects me.

Period.

Oh, the fate.

Blimey, tmrw is the day. And im shit nervous about it. Who isn't right? And i dont want to go the ITE, i want a poly education after this. No wasting of time going for Nitec or higher Nitec. Diploma straight! Bioengineering is tempting, Outdoor Adventure Learning too. But it all depends again on tmrw.

I guess i made promises to people to be optimistic. Be positive evrytime. Well i got to what. I have to accept it somehow. And you, it will be better if you were there.

And yest was Kakak Shasha birthday. And oh, was it a big surprise to her! Matin had spent like hours to plan it and days to execute it. haha Exaggerations. Anyway, went to Matin's hse on thurs and friday to prepare the stuffs. Making the masks was coooool, i like the glue gun but it took up alot of time. Finished on thurs around 12am. Then slept at the sofa. :) i was tired la! had Ncc Trainfire before that. And next day was sch Ncc training. Slacked and had lots of fun with nazirul(we aint gay by the way) took videos of us pranking around, ok more of me. I love sch unit. :) enjoyed then went to Matin's hse again. This time did the Ipod Touch. Its kinda the bigger version where people can take pictures of it. There will be pictures if im too vague la. And it turned out GREAT. Really, and Matin, thank me la. I helped abit la.

So basically evrything was done except for the deco in the birthday girl's hse. I shall skip this, its too long and boring. A picture says a thousand words, so what can a couple do? Get a writing pad and start writing.

There. Thats all. Back to praying and hoping and (insert word) and (insert another word) and etc......

I feel crappy.

So its 2009. Then?

2009! It seems quite odd. Its like im so used to 2008 already and still thinks that 2009 is still far away. Alot of things has happened in 2008. My first girlfriend in 3 years? Yah, and it cultivated to be a sad ending. I still think im right but who cares? I shan't comment further, but my close ones shld knw what i mean. AND being the RSM of Bravo Company was sooo cool when i could scold people anyhow and they cant get me back. hahaha. Also being the seniors in the unit makes it a better experience. Cool or what!

OH yah! Getting fourth in school for cross-country is great, when considering i don't train much in it and still get a medal, thats like lucky to the max! Representing school for x-country and getting 100+ but definitely below 140, over 350+++ runners, is wonderful! I still hold an edge over other people. :) lalalala. Football was okay. Used more like substitute but still got playing time. Still remember the subs sat in one straight row and doing the wave. Thats what make the subs great people!

Teachers? I never met better ones before. Mr Quek was a big influence and inspirational teacher. Gave all the reality bites which hit us hard. Miss Lau with her trademark "SHUT UPP!!!" Who cant forget Mrs Chua, the ever smiling maths teacher who never gave up on her students, i swear she is that damn good. I think she still doesnt know what horny is. hmmm....... Cikgu Junaidah! Her jokes are so cold and mean, and since im always the focal point of jokes, I get the worst. But still, she is fun. The rest, Miss Yee, Mdm Aisyah and Mrs Toh? Its the same they are a great bunch of teachers. :)

Who cant forget 4e5? THE BEST CLASS!!! YES YOU HEARD OR SAW IT, 4E5 is like the best, if not the greatest of the best of most wonderful class ever! The company everyday who never fails to stop laughing brought on by the constant jokes the is being made by different people. Those around me, Fransis, Chen Yu, Amala, Xue Ling, Leon always helped in me in one way and i thank you for that! Words cant explain or describe the fun we all had together. *i sound gay in this paragraph -.-*

Anymore? I dont know if I missed out anything. For people, i shan't put on blog cause it useless when the memories of the persons should be kept in the heart. :)

New year' resolutions?
-Be a more pious person but not too pious. hahaha
-Have a better interest in studies.
-Be a model Cadet Officer.
-Improve on stamina, finish a marathon by end of year.
-To be more polite and know my priorities right.
lastly, make my queen happy. :)

BYEZXZXZXZ!